This post is very different from my normal blog style, and I realize this title may come across as harsh to some. That's truly not my intention. But lately, I've been noticing some things, and my heart is hurting. Disclaimer: I'm writing this to Christians, because I am one, and therefore can speak to those… Continue reading Hi. Please Stop Getting Offended. 🙂
I'm sitting by the window of a small coffee shop in a very different place than I was last year, with a ring on my finger, a full heart, a lot of joy, and a lot of impatience. The best way I can describe the first month of engagement is probably this: really, really awesome and… Continue reading To the Girl who Can’t Wait to be Married but Has To Because of Time. From the Girl who Can’t Wait to be Married but Has To Because of Time.
In the past several years, I've landed on my bed in tears more times than I can remember. Life is hard. Growing up is hard. The 20s are a lively, fun and adventurous time of life, but they can also be very difficult. There are 5 things I've learned that I really want to share… Continue reading Hey, you in your 20s: Having a Hard Day? Listen. Just Breathe.
Dear Precious Ones, Although I am still quite a while away from meeting you, I want you to know that I have been praying for many years about how to be a good and influential example and mother to you. As I have prayed, there are some things I've been meditating on and stirring in my… Continue reading A Letter to the Ones who will Call me Mom
First, a thirty minute drive. Mall is huge, extremely crowded, and extremely noisy. I debate going back to my car, but I must. find. a bridesmaid dress TODAY. On a mission! I visit 4 different stores, 3 of them being department stores in which I have to walk about 20 miles to even find the… Continue reading I am Never Going to the Mall Again.
They told me I should do this, be like this, act this way, go here and go there and show everyone what I was made of. They told me I had talents and should go somewhere and make myself money. They told me I was creative and gifted and that I should go get a… Continue reading Why Listening to your Heart is a Good Idea
It's been one of those weeks. Every single day, something went wrong. I won't mention the day I buttoned my shirt wrong and then actually went out in public without knowing until I looked in a mirror and looked my mortification right in the eyes, mentally retracing every possible person I ran into who may have… Continue reading What to do when you feel like Mia from the Princess Diaries
They happen to everyone. The graduation-day goodbyes to a group of friends that have become more like family and we can spend all day and probably even multiple days feeling the weight of the fact that life changes and people leave and people stay and most of these people we've so grown to love over… Continue reading Sentimental Heart-Bleeds about Life and Living it Well
That alarm went off once, and I hit snooze at 8 am, fully counting on the fact that it would, in 5 minutes, and every five minutes after I hit snooze consecutively, go off again. With that knowledge I soaked in those last few glory moments curled up in my bed. Then, a few moments… Continue reading a day in the life of an introvert who is also not a morning person (and other things you should know to help you understand such people)
Tonight as I curl up to the sound of a raging thunderstorm outside my window, I recall that this day marks 7 years since the day my life changed forever. It was a day that forever marked me and transformed me in a way I never dreamed. It was one of the best days of… Continue reading Never Forget 7/7/07 – Memoirs and Heart Stirrings
I always read stories (true stories) of crazy miracles happening in people's lives and God breaking in at just the right time. Just when they thought all was lost, a miracle happens and it is so evident because of the drastic contrast between the before and after of the miracle. I read these stories, and… Continue reading When the Answer is No, or when there is No Answer.
I heard a song once. I don't remember all of the words, what it's called or who sang it, but these few lines have never left me. "I have never seen you, but I know what you look like. I have never heard you, but I know what you sound like. I have never touched… Continue reading Sunrises and Missing Someone
I fall in love with it every year. It's not my favorite season, but I always grow to love it. It's because during the winter I feel the nearness of the Lord's presence and warmth in a very tender way that is different than spring, summer and fall. I draw so near to Him in… Continue reading Winter, Stillness, and the God who Doesn’t Change
It's one of my biggest struggles. Fear. These days, I've been asking a question. To the Lord. How do you see fear? I want to see that way. Let me not give in to the temptation to look at worry and fear as okay because I'm a woman. Or okay because it's not murder or… Continue reading Fear, Faith, and Looking at God’s Track-Record
Remember those moments in your childhood when you asked mom or dad for something, and the answer you got was "Not yet"? What were the emotions upon hearing that response? Anxious, restless, upset. Maybe if you're like me, you wondered how in the world you were ever going to make it until that piece of… Continue reading The Beauty of “Not Yet”
It happened again. Someone unexpectedly bought my lunch today. The last few months people have spent money on me, given their time to being with me, and shown they value me in many different ways. This is good, right? Well, yes. It's wonderful. But there's something wrong. ....Me. What is this thing that rises up… Continue reading How to Let Yourself be Loved
This isn't going to be profound, and this isn't going to be well put-together. It's not going to make anyone really happy, and it's not encouraging or enlightening. I didn't write this for anyone, in fact, I wrote it just because I had to. And there's a reason I chose to put it on here… Continue reading Facing Head On ‘You are Not Worth it’
One thing I know is this: I've got to make time to breathe. What I mean by breathe, is just to be alive. It's when I choose to go lay in the hammock instead of the hundred things on my to-do list that seem like an urgent emergency. It's when I choose to be still… Continue reading Glory, Beauty and the Wonder of it All.
So I'm just rollin along, living the life that's been set in front of me, thinking how different "actual" life is from the life I always pictured. That's how it always works, isn't it? Just to be honest, back when I was 16 or so, I expected right now to be married, maybe even with… Continue reading Getting Back to What’s Real
That moment in time, in the summer of 2011. Though it was nearly 3 months, it feels like merely a moment in time. It was a divine appointment of destiny. Young 20 and 30-something world-changers, history-writers, earth-shakers were gathered by the hand of God, from every corner of the earth. Little flames from all over… Continue reading May Jesus’ Name be Lifted High as we Press On and Go….
His eyes were full of defiance. Over the months I worked with him, I grew to deeply love and care for *Adam. He was an only child, raise by a single mom. Every day she would come to pick him up, and take him to the next place where someone else would watch him. He… Continue reading Advocating Adoption for Foster Children
There's this sparrow. This sparrow with a scared heart. You can see the heart pounding almost out of its chest. Looking every which way, in every direction in fear. There's these hands. These hands that come and cup around the terrified little bird. They surround the bird's body. As the hands steady it, the bird's… Continue reading sparrows.
Tonight looks like rain. Steady, pouring, giving-life-to-the-earth rain. Tonight looks like a T-shirt and yoga pants, socks and a messy bun, curled up with a steaming cup of vanilla-chamomile tea. And I'm reminded of how good it feels to just breathe. As I recollect, I realize that so many moments in my day-to-day living are… Continue reading time, wisdom, and remembering to abide.
I always feel the tug. I feel it no matter how torn my heart is in a million different directions, how crazy the distractions are, how foggy and distant I seem to be from Him, how out of reach of my First Love, the Prize of my Life, My Treasure....I feel the tug. This tug… Continue reading heartstrings.
I WANT MY LIFE TO SCREAM THAT I AM IN LOVE WITH JESUS! All that I am, all that I do, every place I go, what I choose to spend my time doing, ALL OF IT- I want it to bleed my love for Jesus Christ. I have learned a lot over the last few… Continue reading taking your breath away.