Your bleary eyes blink open as the morning sun beams through the window. You wake up again, ready for another day that feels exactly like the one before it. Your feet hit the hard floor. Your body is weary, and your mind foggy. And your heart....well, honestly it's had better days. Right now, you're exhausted.… Continue reading Don’t Despise These Long Days Full of Small Things
There is no end to the amount of things to worry and fret about every day. They just don't stop. I lie awake at night, knowing full well I really should be sleeping. They crash through my mind, relentless as the waves on a seashore, and I feel powerless to shut them off - to… Continue reading When The Anxiety Never Stops
*I hope this post inspires you to remember the history you've built, to recall God's faithfulness in your own life, and to see how far you've come. May this post remind you of your journey, and though it is not the same as mine, may you find inspiration to write your own letter, details of… Continue reading But Just Wait Until 2017 – Letter to My 22-Year-Old Self
Dear friend, I see you. You’re disappointed. This isn’t where you thought you’d be by now. This isn’t what you planned - this doesn’t even look like what God spoke to you in the place of prayer. This looks nothing like the promises He gave you that made your heart swell with joy. You’ve been… Continue reading When God Says Yes
The friend in this article has read it and has given me her permission to share this story anonymously. One fall afternoon, a couple of 22-year-olds set out on a walk in the park with a peppermint tea and a hazelnut latte. I could tell my friend was having a tough time. The furrowed brow… Continue reading The Power of Thankfulness When Life Isn’t Fair
The earth wakes up slowly, like one giant yawn. The air, still damp with morning dew, carries on its waves the sound of distant echoing birds, murmuring back and forth, in their own song-language. Inside, the tea kettle begins a low-pitched hum, gradually working up to the familiar, steady whistle. My morning is slow and… Continue reading This Beautiful Dark Life
It's been one of those weeks. Every single day, something went wrong. I won't mention the day I buttoned my shirt wrong and then actually went out in public without knowing until I looked in a mirror and looked my mortification right in the eyes, mentally retracing every possible person I ran into who may have… Continue reading What to do when you feel like Mia from the Princess Diaries
Tonight as I curl up to the sound of a raging thunderstorm outside my window, I recall that this day marks 7 years since the day my life changed forever. It was a day that forever marked me and transformed me in a way I never dreamed. It was one of the best days of… Continue reading Never Forget 7/7/07 – Memoirs and Heart Stirrings
It's one of my biggest struggles. Fear. These days, I've been asking a question. To the Lord. How do you see fear? I want to see that way. Let me not give in to the temptation to look at worry and fear as okay because I'm a woman. Or okay because it's not murder or… Continue reading Fear, Faith, and Looking at God’s Track-Record
So I'm just rollin along, living the life that's been set in front of me, thinking how different "actual" life is from the life I always pictured. That's how it always works, isn't it? Just to be honest, back when I was 16 or so, I expected right now to be married, maybe even with… Continue reading Getting Back to What’s Real
There's this sparrow. This sparrow with a scared heart. You can see the heart pounding almost out of its chest. Looking every which way, in every direction in fear. There's these hands. These hands that come and cup around the terrified little bird. They surround the bird's body. As the hands steady it, the bird's… Continue reading sparrows.
Tonight looks like rain. Steady, pouring, giving-life-to-the-earth rain. Tonight looks like a T-shirt and yoga pants, socks and a messy bun, curled up with a steaming cup of vanilla-chamomile tea. And I'm reminded of how good it feels to just breathe. As I recollect, I realize that so many moments in my day-to-day living are… Continue reading time, wisdom, and remembering to abide.
I'm turning 23 in a month. There are dreams in me that I long to see fulfilled, that just aren't happening. I have old journals full of pages of promises God gave, that I banked on. Of dreams God planted in me, that I counted on. Where are these promises? Where are all these dreams? Where… Continue reading impossible hope.
That weather outside...it makes me act strange. Or maybe I can't blame the weather. Maybe it's just really my heart. That cold, windy, drizzly chill, it just makes me want to run. And today that's what I did. Literally. I walked out the door of my friends' cozy house to be greeted by an ice-cold… Continue reading running, fighting, and a whisper
"Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed." (John 20:29) It takes a lot of faith to believe having not seen. Some days when I think on the promises God has spoken over me and over my life, I honestly wonder how much longer I can have faith in them when it… Continue reading and everything that’s new has bravely surfaced, teaching us to breathe