Sometimes I hate my own heart's desires. I guess because of past experience. Whenever I've strongly desired something in the past, I've had to struggle with it for years and wrestle with the feeling that God doesn't see or care, and a million other lies about Him and about me, that swirl through my mind… Continue reading Anxiety & The Dark Side of Hope
Here's the thing, heart. I know that where you are right now feels like the end. How it feels like the story's over. How it looks like this is it. But listen, heart. Listen to me. As long as you are still beating, it's not over. You're still beating, heart, and that means the story… Continue reading Why You Should Never, Ever, Ever Stop Hoping
I'm heartbroken. I feel the sadness of this heartache pierce me nearly every day. I'm heartbroken…but I'm also angry. This place I call home - this place I live in and work in and grow older in - it's broken. I'm living in a broken home. It's cold. It's dark. The earth seems to be reeling… Continue reading The Night is Never the End
Tonight as I curl up to the sound of a raging thunderstorm outside my window, I recall that this day marks 7 years since the day my life changed forever. It was a day that forever marked me and transformed me in a way I never dreamed. It was one of the best days of… Continue reading Never Forget 7/7/07 – Memoirs and Heart Stirrings
I'm turning 23 in a month. There are dreams in me that I long to see fulfilled, that just aren't happening. I have old journals full of pages of promises God gave, that I banked on. Of dreams God planted in me, that I counted on. Where are these promises? Where are all these dreams? Where… Continue reading impossible hope.
When you hear the Lord say something to you. When He promises you something, and you hold Him to it. When you pray, and wait, and pray, and wait, and wait some more, and wait sooooo much, .....and nothing happens. Nothing ever happens. And you find that 3 years later you are still waiting on… Continue reading so i won’t let go
Somewhere along the way something happened to me. I can't pinpoint when it happened or even how it happened. I just woke up one morning, and I was free. See, this summer was unexpectedly hard and trying. I moved to Kansas City Missouri this January. I have been living here for 8 months. I came… Continue reading my semi-crazy summer